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To My Baby Boy On Your Second Birthday

My Sweet Little Boy,
I’m overcome with emotion thinking back to your very dramatic entrance into this world just two short years ago.  You didn’t come according to my plan.  After giving birth to your older brother I thought I knew what to expect.  But you entered the world in your own way.  It was clear then and is still clear today that you will pave your own path. And from your very first breath I knew that all of the things I thought I had learned about being a mom would change with you.

You bring me new joys.  And you bring me new challenges.  You make me a better me every day.

Your fearlessness keeps me constantly at the edge of my seat. But I know you will use it to do extraordinary things with your life.  You will be unstoppable!

You play hard but you love even harder.  There has never been a hug as tight as yours.  You hug with every ounce of strength you have.  And someday you will have a family of your own that will be stronger because of that hug.

You wear dirt like it’s your outfit each and every day!  You refuse to stay clean.  But in life there is something to be said for knowing how to roll your sleeves up and get dirty.  And I’m confident you will use this to be successful.

You, quite possibly, have the loudest scream I’ve ever heard! While I’m hopeful you will learn to use your indoor voice (any day now) I’m confident that you will know how to speak up when you have something important to say.  And I love this about you.

You are sooooo handsome.  I know I am your mom, but seriously, there is no denying those big brown eyes will turn heads some day.  Just promise me that you will remember that being handsome on the inside is what will always matter most. 

You are as silly as silly comes.  I hope you hold on to this and never take yourself or life too seriously.  Knowing how to laugh and make others laugh is an amazing quality to have.

You are dramatic like me.  Yikes!  But I know you will use that contagious passion to move mountains someday.  I want nothing more than for you to live your life passionately. 

You sing and dance like no one is watching.  You are my ham.  Don’t let go of that confidence.  Always be yourself.  You are awesome.
You are in a hurry to do everything your brother does (but in your own way, of course).  I don’t want to hold you back but I must admit I am not in a hurry for you to grow up any more.  I wanted your older brother to hit every milestone as soon as possible.  Perhaps I felt I had something to prove as a new mom.  But with you it’s quite the opposite.  You are in a hurry and I want you to slow down.  I want to freeze time.
Moving to a big boy bed can wait just a little bit longer, can’t it?  (I’m not ready to take you out of that crib for the last time.)
I know you want to use the potty like your brother.  But can we wait just one more month?  (Without diapers around, I have to accept there is no longer a baby in this house.)
I know you want to do everything yourself.  (But this mommy still wants to help you.)
Please be patient with me (for at least one more dayas I let go of the baby you once were and help you continue to grow into the incredible little man you are becoming.
I am so proud of the unique little individual I see growing right before my eyes.  But there is no doubt you will be mama’s baby boy for the rest of your life.
I love you.
Your biggest fan,

"Today you are you.  That is truer than true.  There is no one alive that is youer than you!"  ~Dr. Seuss

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